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I am like emitting enough heat to set-off a fire-extinguishing-sprinkler .. ARGH !!
Fucking father is .. well .. being Fuckingly Fuckotic.
I HATE him ! ABSOLUTELY HATE HIM !!
FUCK HIM !!
The way he talks about me .. about the stuff i do .. ANYTHING bout me AT ALL .. is like Fuckily IDIOTIC !!
"u noe why that comp is so lag? & why no one wans to use it? coz that pig-head (i.e. translate that to chinese .. & by the way, he was refering to 'ME') go download all the STUPID things in that comp.."
THAT was the EXACT WORDS he SAID when talking to his "pet" - my bro.
WTFF !!!
I am like SO at my BOILING POINT RIGHT THIS INSTANT !!
Regretting SO MUCH not going to M'sia with my aunts *sobz* regret .. regret .. regret ..
But WTF, i was feeling like burning up this morning .. it doesn't feel like a fever, mind you .. i tink i ate too many heaty stuffs or it might have been the alcohol from last night ..
ARGH !!
I really CAN'T stand him .. especially the FUCKING way he SPEAKS ! his FUCKING voice juz makes me wan to BITCH SLAP HIM !! Yeesh ! FUCK HIM !
My mom keeps on saying things like "haiyo .. dun be like this .. he loves you very much you know .."
FUCK HIM ! WTFF ! MY BLOODIE ARSE ! HATE HIM !
Feel like escaping from my house right now .. but still feeling the burning up .. sianded ..
Being in the same house with him is just FUCKINGLY DISGUSTING !! EEEEWWWWWW! FUCK HIM ! (i know i m being absolutely crude .. but WTFF ! FUCK HIM ! .. sorry can't help it hahahahhahaha)
If i am going to take the same cab with him to my grandma house .. I WILL DIE !
Why?! coz i will hold my breath ALL THE FUCKING WAY from my house to grandma house ..
WHY?! coz i REFUSE, ABSOLUTELY REFUSE to breathe in the SAME FUCKING air he breathes !!! FUCKING DISGUSTING !! ARGH ARGH ARGH !!
THIS is how much i LOATHE him ! FUCK HIM !!
WADEVER !! arh ~ feel SO much better now .. FUCK HIM ! WAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ! |
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| (+*MissWaTeVeR*+) ♥ 8:29 PM |
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At home today .. NOT because i m on MC AGAIN ! its HOLIDAY ok ?!
The sky's leaking again .. making me feel restless .. feel like going out .. but then again , i'm too lazy to just dress up & get outta the house .. & the rain is yet another reason why i am here typing away ..
Just finished reading the last latest episode of "Vampire Knight" comics .. although i was already finished with the anime itself *diao~* Guess i am THAT free ! LOL .. well , it realli doesn't surprise myself at all .. i am .. well .. it's just SO me !
I hate stories , be it comics or anime or tv series , that makes me think .. ROFL .. you must be thinking : " .. er .. WTH ! " hahahahhaa ~ BUT i am STILL watching them .. WTFH !!! -.-" wow ~ did i just see someone TRYING to reach into the computer screen to strangle ME ?! OMG U R SCARY ! bwhahahahaha ~
I HATE thinking bout things that i don't wanna think about .. like whats my aim (er .. like wads my aim? LOL) .. like what i am good at (goodness .. can't think of any >.<") .. like boyfrenz (told u i don't hav any .. & i might stay like this for a LONG time) .. Thinking of these things make me feel all uncomfortable .. make me feel so confused .. make me feel .. inferior .. somehow .. makes me feel .. useless ..
SHIT ! And here i am AGAIN ! FEELING sorry for myself ! i MUST NOT do this ! i needta have CONFIDENCE ! The mere evidence that i am here typing away means that i had already went through SO much to reach where i am today ! i must STOP feeling inferior !!!
But .. it's realli easier said than done .. unfortunately .. hmm .. it's kinda gettin all stuffy & dry here ! ARGH ! ok .. let's move on to something else ! I have had enough of all these meaningless thing ! YESH ! i gotta MOVE ON ! That's my RESOLVE !!! for now ...
The stinging feeling of having a pay cut is almost gone by now .. guess the advantages of staying on greatly outweighs the disadvantages .. *sighs~* AND another of my resolve .. gotta start doing something .. learning Japanese & continuing with my piano Grade 8 exams .. then .. i can decide whether to start on a different path ^.^ however .. things might change too ~ let's just say .. wait & see !
Having finished Mikomi's first story .. i kinda liked it cause i need not think too much & it contained the necessary ingredients that made me wanna continue reading hohoho ~ Loved the twist to the story nearing the end .. but felt that the ending could be more indepth .. more could have been described .. it kinda seems abrupt in the ending ..
But other than that, it's a fantastic story ! Currently ranked "PLEASE read !"
To Mikomi : REALLY wanted to draw a comics outta your story , but "time" is still currently an issue considering my "pay-cut" situation & "emotions" are getting in the way too .. Wait for me k ? *blushes* Will start reading your second story shortly =) hehe !
Oh ya ! wanted to getta Jap name for myself recently .. LAUGH ALL YOU WANT PPL ! hahahhahaah ~ i know .. it's realli random ! But thats ME once again ! Please leave me some recommendations if you have any !!!
In the meantime .. WADEVER ~! hohohohohohoho ~ |
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| (+*MissWaTeVeR*+) ♥ 1:51 AM |
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*munch .. munch ... munch*
no doubt bout wad u juz heard .. it's me stuffin my face with the all-too-suitable economic rice ! Hear what people say bout eatin to de-stress ? It's true
Why?! why? .. CAUSE juz got a bloodie pay CUT ! FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE ! MY pay is already SO DAMN pathetic & they still have the cheek to CUT it ! for crying out LOUD !
It's not depressed really .. but the feeling of having something stuck in my throat just wouldn't go away!
I am .. I would say .. unhappy .. Angry ? hmm ... a bit ...
well , I am like throwing things which, somehow, find a way into my hands .. imagine that .. LOL !
Maybe it's REALLY time for me to job hop again ...
Teaching in MOE .. from what i learn from my bro, gives me a chance to really earn BIG .. considering i don't wana go into sales, that's the next best opportunity i have .. but .. there's the risk that i might really end-up strangling my students ROFL !!! Maybe yes .. maybe no ..
Teaching piano .. hmm .. this pays REALLY well ! BUT .. i still have my grade 8 to go through & maybe I have to get a diploma in music too for me to be eligible to teach .. THAT , i WILL have problem , considering wad my piano teacher used to describe the way i play the piano: "you sound like an elephant STOMPING thru' the jungle" ... wow ... with a comment like THAT ... I really have doubts bout this option ..
Designing .. yeah .. it's ALWAYS been my dream ... DESIGNER .. sounds GOOD ! but .. my dad might probably kill me before i can even finish pronouncing "D-E-S-I-G-N" .. wth ..
Stay in my current line, doing account assisting? hmm ... i am quite (wouldn't say i am TOTALLY confortable yet .. still so much things out there that i haven't learn) comfortable doing it .. BUT if i am going to do this same job in ANOTHER company .. well .. THAT's the uncertainty .. uncertain that will i still be able to blog during working hours ? will i be able to msn when i am bored ? will i be able to do online shopping ? will i even have TIME to do all these ..
woah ~ seems like there are SO many reasons for me to stay on in this company .. but that having-something-stuck-in-my-throat feeling still wouldn't fade away .. still as stinging as ever .. AND there are so many "BUTS" in my other options ! OMFG ! can someone PLEASE tell me WHAT I should do?
Well, i guess I still need opinions which i can consider, before i do ANYTHING that will make me regret for the REST of my life ..
Hmm ... it's been abit bland , hasn't it? seeing me go on & on & on .. & on ..& on bout my unhappiness of having my pathetic pay CUT ! ARGH ! that feeling AGAIN !
ok .. i gotta calm down .. ok ..
OK ! here's probably the juicy ones !
Just get to know that my fren is a blogger too ! WHAT's really "WOAH" , is that she writes her own story & posts it ! WOW .. THAT 's what i've been wanting to do all along ! remember the part where i intro u guys to "Twilight" ? yesh ! dat's it dat's it ! if you've been readin my blog ^.^ hohoohoh ~
CHECK OUT her blog here : http://mikomi-shinjiru.blogspot.com/
it's really amazing !
Her story is, i must say, well-planned ! i don't really know how she can go from this point of the story to the next point .. it just keeps flowing .. and it's really good .. considering she is not an official writer herself
when i first started reading her fictional story .. i was like "wow" .. i can definitely PICTURE it in a comics ! yes .. that's how successful it is ! Although .. yeah .. the story is based on jap names .. jap back-drops .. jap everyday lives .. BUT , i believe , only a good writer will be able to make me feel like i am in a comics book .. cause an ordinary writer will make me feel like i am probably TRYING very hard to be in some kind of comics .. hahahhahaa !
Then , as i read on , i discovered the desire of the writer .. the desire to find love .. well .. THAT might be one of the reasons why i am so captivated by her story .. that's when i started to feel goosebumps running about my skin >.<" BUT it's a GOOD feeling , mind you ! & i absolutely loved it .. And then, there are other times when the tips of my mouth starts to curve upwards on their own accord, cause she is writing out what i am hoping that will happen to me someday when i finally find the one for me .. which, sadly, only happens in stacks of papers - which we call "book" - or in a square box emitting light - which we call "TV" or "computer".
I am definitely not sure where the story is going .. but THAT's what keeps me glued to my computer ! No doubt that i will finish reading the whole of it .. unless something happens to the story line, that is! hahahhahaha .. all in all .. it's currently ranked "MUST-READ" !
To the writer, Mikomi:
Absolutely ADORE your story ! Keep going ! No turning back now ! WILL strangle you if you stop half-way through it, SERIOUSLY! Sad to say, I'm hooked ... again ... hahahahhaha ! WADEVER ~ |
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| (+*MissWaTeVeR*+) ♥ 10:56 PM |
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