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too young to get bored with life? lmao |
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m feeling a bit down now ... dunno y ... my fren sometimes say that i have had a good life ... everything is planned out for me ... i dun hav to worrie where my next meal will come from ... that i m a very fortunate being ... well, okay ... i know i m rebellious when it comes to these things. i dun like it when ppl say such things to me ... i feel ... somewat ... inferior ... u might ask :"y?" honestly, i dunno ... LMAO ... i let such things get to me easily , its bad i know, but i juz couldn't control ...
i used to blame my dad for not giving me the freedom to decide thing on my own ... actualli, i still blame him ... i feel that the reason y i take things for granted & m so ignorant of things around me is becoz he always paved my path for me ... i know he does these things is because he loves me and wants me to live life with no worries ... but i still resent him for this ... if he knows bout this i know he will feel hurt so i never bothered to tell him ... anyway my brother is his pet son ... so ... watever~
sometimes i wonder ... y r there human beings? it's a weird question to ask and there r many answers ... but the weirdest thing is that, whenever i think of such stuff, i juz stop here ... its like there never was a definite answer ...
but the thing that realli brings me this down , real down is wat do we live for? i feel like i have no aim anymore ... i have no evergy to do anything ... i dun wanna go to work ... dun wanna do anything at all ... guess i m already bored with life ...
i love the ppl at my workplace, except the managing director ... but i get bored real easily ... i realli need a job which gives me a chance to explore ... a chance to express myself ... i need freedom to do wat i want ...
ppl look down on me becoz i job hop a few times ... they say that wat i want to do is juz to stay at home and do nothing ... they joke with me like this ... i laugh it off everytime ... but deep inside of me, i mind this very much ... maybe i m good-for-nothing ba ...
realli realli down rite now ... sianz ... watever~ |
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(+*MissWaTeVeR*+) ♥ 6:57 PM |
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